been kicked out of my place for 3 weeks now, alienated from my family, tried for all of my dads to earn my dads respect but never could live up to what he thought i shude be, never treated me as a son, only as an expendable worker. could never get him to be proud of any thing i ever did. now i alienate him, hes not my father, not any more, never treated me like i was worth any thing, now i do the same to him, 18 years of my life gone to waste for a unrelenting and unsucseful purpose. one thing i have learnd from my years, is that every one leavs u, just depends on when. every little becon of light gose dark. iv learnd to never trust any one, ur gf/bf, freinds, and even family, they all leave u and treat u like shit at one point or another. i dont plan on leting any one els get close to me any more, im tiered of the pain.. im tiered of life, some times i wish the i could leav it all behind.. the world and is a dark place, and the only ones u can count on is ur self, aand ur self alone. get used to life guys, its just going to get harder from here on out, just a bit of advice i wanted to share with every one